abstract

in 2d concepts we watched a movie about ray johnson. and it got me in one of those artsy moods where my thinking just goes completely a-wall. not in a bad way, just some things tend to open doors in my mind. what a great feeling.

maybe part of that is me getting a full nights rest last night. who knows.

i seriously need to start carrying a little notebook with me to write down my random thoughts and philosophies...! because i thought of something on the way to that class that i really enjoyed, but i cant remember a thing about it...

anyway. this guy ray johnson was completely mysterious. one man on the film described him as a collage himself, not really a person. what a great example of putting your whole being into something you love, his whole life till his death. what i thought was hilarious is one of his friends describing when they took a walk, and a person in front of them dropped their coffee jar filled with grounds. as they passed it, he says "coffee break".

i mean really. how funny is that.

today's a good day.

simply love.

holy buckets of love.
literally. haha. its crazy. i was hit with it on thursday. its amazing, how one can be in a puddle, a pitious puddle of no hope headed straight for the nothingness of darkness, and along comes someone else, even better a group of people just like you. and they share a story of similar dispair. and your puddle dries up and becomes a cloud again. that instantly. crazy, i tell you! love is so...blah! a miracle in itself. because it's also God. and i'm starting to sort of grasp kind of this love He has for us. i was reading psalm 121 the other night, and i just sat there and read it over and over. it talks about how God never sleeps in order to keep us from falling, and how He is our only help. i guess its just a concept i've never come across before...i could just picture in my mind Jesus sitting by my bedside, watching me sleep...such like a tender thing.
once love is remembered, nothing makes sense, but it does at the same time. you can feel like you completely know nothing, but with love you have all the understanding ever and more. i'm starting to read The Shack and its stinkin awesome. i love the quote in there:

"there are times when you choose to believe something that would normally be considered absolutely irrational. it doesn't mean that it is actually irrational, but it surely is not rational. Perhaps there is suprarationality: reason beyond the normal definitions of fact or data-based logic; something that makes sense only if you can see a bigger picture of reality. Maybe that is where faith fits in."

love it. love love love. nothing can take this away from me.