heh. i'm a big girl, i can do this. i dont like the way i feel...needing someone when i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, because its not too healthy. and i'd know the worst of it...
sigh. has Jesus been here too? the Bible says he was tempted in every way...God what do i do about this? all i need is you but i feel like i need him here. i was content earlier...what happened?

"you wont relent until you have it all. my heart is yours. come be the fire inside of me. come be the flame upon my heart. come be the fire inside of me until the day that you and i are one."

my hope is in that. Christ will complete me one day, and i wont have to feel needy. glory. i assume this neediness thing is just a normal human thing and nothing that i'm doing wrong. of course i always want more. i'm a human. but i dont want to live as a consumer. but that requires getting out of my comfort zone. which is hard i've been realizing.

can't wait for some FELLOWSHIP this weekend. holy craaaap. i dont know how much longer i can live in this needy, lonely and overthinking body.